On a bench I sit, by the water, during what I believe to be a perfect spring day. I am technically alone, but am more than enough to keep myself company. There is something that is simple and sweet - yet complex and consoling which consumes me during my solitude.
I hear the wind - feel the breeze...the blue of the sky and green of the earth flood my eyes. This is it...the moment in which I am truly happy. Everything feels right in the world at this exact second.
I seek to find this feeling to hold it and breath it in for a blink of an eye. This is why I live adventure to adventure --- this is why I am an explorer. This second drives me, it's the muscle that pumps my veins full of blood and gives me a reason to breath the air.
People wonder what being a free spirit is - a gypsy seeking and always finding...the need for your senses to explode with new sights, smells, tastes, sounds and feelings! To fly free! I am a bird - a free soul - seeking continued freedom and enlightenment. I am free to be the uniquely flawed individual that I am. Free to love - free to feel - free to stand still. Free to just be.
I am not a nester. When I lay my head down I don't dream of a nest to settle into and live comfortably forever. I dream of the unknown that lies ahead. My home is wherever my head hits the pillow.
This is why I love my job - it literally gives me wings. It gets old sometimes and I miss some in my life at moments, but the one person I have always relied on is continually by my side. I have been my best companion - my closest confidant - my most intimate friend. Sad to some, but gives me great pride in who I am. Unlike most I look in the mirror every night and no matter how bloated, broken out, or grumpy I am I always think I am beautiful. I have unconditional love, forgiveness and grace for myself.
This is ultimately what I want to find in someone else. Someone that can see past the bullshit and look at me for who I truly am. Thank you to the people that do this in my life and the people that put up with me in spite of the bullshit! You that have stood by me through the good and the bad and have ultimately helped me find myself and my wings - I am forever in your debt!
I was a kite in a tree and you set me free!
To: today,
you never cease to amaze me with your beautifully surprising gifts. Thank you for never being a disappointment. Sorry for the many times I have spoiled you!
Your friend...in peace,
Stephanie
