Lives Lived

Oh the stirring 

Oh the burning

Oh the beckoning from the depths

The urge to trust 

The urge to do

The urge to love what you once knew

Time is now

Time is then

Time is not always an old friend

What is true

What is real

What we know is what we feel

Is it now 

Is it then

Is it what has always been 

With this heart

With this head

With this soul that has bled

Take the truth

Take the feel

Take the goddamn steering wheel 

self discovery

The wind blows these blonde locks with a chill that reaches deep inside. It's presence makes me nervous and vulnerable. I wish it would leave me alone and let me thaw. The balls of my shoes hit the cracked and desolate pavement. Searching beyond the city street into the dying leaves flowing from the overgrown trees. Thoughts course through this mind. "If I keep walking, to god knows where, I will find it...only god knows 'what'." "It's not so cold now." "I am numb now." "Does anyone care?" "Hello? Is there anyone there?" "It's just you and me now." The "you" being me as well. The only company I can keep is that lonely little girl deep inside. She always finds the best places to hide. I search for her constantly, telling myself she is not someone I need. What a fool I am to think those things. She keeps me lonely and free, warm and freezing. I feel alive because she has survived to make me me. To this I owe all things.

I See Me

As the delicate flower blooms,
facing the moon.

I'm caught by reflections,
at the water's edge.

My breath is heavy,
hands on my knees

Do my eyes deceive?

Who is this creature I see,
dressed in hues of blue.

It's pleasant and it's new,
making me feel things untrue.

Who is this mystery trapped,
where is the key for release?

The stars shine,
sharing the glassy surface.

I have lost myself to the sight,
staying, staring through the night.

Life is different now,
as the darkness fades to day.

I searched down to the depths,
swam with the wandering truth.

Unearthing the buried treasure,
a secret, a pearl.

I lost my sight,
blind, I see clearly.

Now my eyes cannot deceive,
for I'm continually being set free.

You are my breath,
you are my light,
I will not forget you this night.

I sense you

I hear
To beat
To feel vibrations move my feet

I smell
To inhale
To have your scent fill my cavities

I blink
To see
To flood from visions in front of me

I touch
To feel
To make your softness real

I taste
To savor
To embrace your flavor

I know
To think
To overcome my sensory

I love
To melt
To loose control in all I felt

All that you are,
makes me soar.
Beauty as my wings;
spirit as my lift.
There's nowhere I cannot go,
with you as my gift.

I see it so clear,
these things that you fear.

They hold on so tight,
to keep you from flight.

But we are fierce,
bringing them to tears.

Warriors in this life,
we handle the strife.

Look through my eyes,
you may be surprised.

There is new light,
because I sacrifice.

Take a second to let it all out,
you will leave without a doubt.

Life is calling now,
let's see what it's all about.

Tick Tock

How short is a week,
how long an hour?

Time-

Trapped in my mind.

Time-

As real as the wind,
touching my skin.

Like stars in the dark,
I hang captured in suspense.

Time-

Beckons the beginning and
end of life's breath.

Time-

Held in the heart of a longing lover,
in the wings of a caged bird,
the bosom of a mourning mother.

Time-

You've stolen me,
I shan't  recover.

Cold mistress in warm light

Love beats down,
everyone hears the sound.

Love leaves me,
it's stained the streets beneath me.

Love clings by a thread,
the weight is heavy in my chest.

Love flees,
the bindings weak, now nothing left to see.

Love a cold winters mistress,
as naked as the barren trees.

Love a kindled flame,
as faint as the morning beam.

Love never defeated,
reborn for one that will complete it.