"Let it go"

It was 3am and I heard a ringing in the back of my mind. Three times it rang then a sleepy familiar voice sounded in my ear. "Hello, hello, hello is anyone there?" It took me a second to respond, "hello". I heard a sigh and then a "let it go, dude - sorry it's not you...I'm just frustrated!" Then silence -

The next thing I know I'm wide awake. I look around my room....what just happened.  I check my phone, it's on the charger - no calls made. Was this literally a wake up call?

As I lay in my bed pondering what life/God was trying to tell me the shadows began to fade and the sun rose to show clearly the truth I had been missing for far too long.

I was holding on, holding on to so many things that weren't mine, living with a sense of entitlement. Every time I gave a piece of myself away I subconsciously decided I was owed something in return.  The truth I learned last night was it's time to let it go. Let go of everything and everyone that I was holding ransom. In my heart there lived a list of hurt and pain I would occasionally bring to the surface to ensure my unhappiness.

The voice called out to me tired and gruff - let it go. The words continued to repeat in my head - haunting me.  Let it go, let it go, let it go! A whisper nudging at my heart - my life - my soul, with deep desire to be set free.

Today is my breakthrough. A footstep set firmly on my path of healing. Everything is dust. This world has taught me, it's diligent student, that I can "have" and "control". Everything I "have" has simply been loaned to me. When I die I will "have" nothing and everything I "control" will become dust.

So, as I am painfully aware of this giant human flaw I have a choice - ignore the truth or begin the harsh naked process of letting it go.

This is my journey - a challenge to walk in the light of truth. I am here to plant seeds of love and forgiveness and in it's due season to reap a plentiful harvest of peace.

Welcome to the peace grove.