This June I started a new journey, an adventure for sure! As I stepped out unto a new footing I promised myself one thing, that I would give in COMPLETELY to the process! It has been many things and I have navigated strange and brute emotions. I have become in every way the person I never wanted to be - jaded, harsh, selfish, grumpy, hopeless and entitled. I still don't fully understand why I needed to become this person or all the lessons it is meant to teach me. One thing I know for sure is that it woke me up. It made me take a good hard look in the mirror and make a decision.
Do I want to be this person because of the things I have been through or do I want to rise above it all and become more. More full of grace and love. More selfless and hopeful. More unassuming and delighted. More of the things I see in others that take my breath away. More of who God desires me to be...less tarnished and more purified.
As I sit here, in my office in the sky, I know for sure that God already sees me like this. I'm already forgiven and purified and in the process of continually being forgiven and purified. The past is over - it's now up to me what I do with my present. With God's grace all of his dreams for me - things I had given up hope on - will come true. Not because I have a clear vision of what that statement means or because I am entitled to have them but because God is a good father and he loves his daughter.
I'm still on the journey...in the process, desperately seeking the adventures I was made for. I'm taking new steps everyday - new steps on my path - new steps in my life and it is so exciting and I am getting ready for something big! I am truly blessed!!!
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